I have been making general noises about starting a blog for a long time. In fact, I have had one or two false starts so far as well. I think that the difficulty I continue to encounter when I am attempting to get the juice flowing is subject matter. I think that the most successful blogs which I have read in the past have been blogs where the author was writing passionately about subject matter that they were well-learnt in, or at the very least initiated in. I start to think about my own passions. Often the first thing that pops into my head is politics—but as passionate as I am about politics, and as passionate as I am about my philosophies and personal discoveries (which I think go hand in hand with one’s political beliefs) I am reluctant to engage in political discourse for two reasons. First, I loathe debating politics with the majority of mouth-frothing True Believers — on either side of the aisle. Although I am certainly left leaning, I do not consider myself a Democrat, and I think that some of the party-line ideas are deplorable. I just happen to take issue with more on the right. Second: While I consider myself well-informed on political policy, there are intricacies of it which I do not feel qualified to comment on. I have never gone to law school. The most qualification I have is the Political Science requirement to earn an AA.
So where does that leave me, I ask myself. Politics and government are not my only passions. I also love music. I happen to sell music for a living. This is not a coincidence. While I am writing this, I am listening to Muse’s The 2nd Law, which was released this last Tuesday on October 2nd. I’ve seriously considering blogging my musical opinions, which are considerably copious. Music seems like a good choice to me. It’s still controversial, but certainly not on the drooling idiot level that politics can be. I don’t have a degree in music, but I’m willing to bet that there are a number of bloggers who are popular for their musical opinions who do not have a degree either. It seems like music is a good choice. But something is just not clicking for me. It does not feel like I’m where I need to be yet. I love music. I am passionate about music. But something is still missing.
At work today, we were discussing ways to drive sales. We are not doing as well this year as we did the last. This is not to say we are not doing well—merely that we could do better. The idea came to me that I could write reviews of new releases as they came out and share them through the store’s social media, and then it hit me—why did this idea of writing reviews seem so exciting to me. Why was writing the solution that I first thought of and was most excited about. Well, it would be because I love to write. I love crafting a narrative. I love the poetry that subtly lives within well-written prose.
Don’t let me fool you: this idea is not new to me. It is not the first time I have considered writing a blog that focused on…writing. It is only that I have previously had absolutely no idea how to write about writing. Do I describe to you what I am writing about currently? Do I just share what I am writing via blog? I don’t want to do that, because I write with the aim to get published, and if I “self-publish” it first on a blog, then quite a few doors are closed on what I can do with the project. So where do I go from there? This website was originally launched to be the home of a web comic—and I still plan for it to do just that—but how do I write something worth reading, something engaging, without giving away my projects uncompleted and unpublished?
The answer is: I don’t have the first clue. I don’t know what is going to work. I don’t know what isn’t going to work. But I think I have narrowed down what I am going to attempt to do. What I write is influenced primarily by two things. You guessed it: My personal beliefs, my politics, my philosophy—however you would like to classify it–and music. I craft narratives based on ideas I have witnessed and held close to my heart—or ideas which others have held and I have worked to attempt to comprehend. I do not write, I would go so far as to say I cannot write, without listening to music. In fact, the majority of what I write is inspired entirely by music. I have a novel in the works that is based entirely on the album Common Existence by the post-hardcore band Thursday. I have another novel which is impossible for me to get into the mindset of without listening to Godspeed You! Black Emperor’s Lift Your Skinny Fists Like Antennas to Heaven. You get the point, I’m certain.
So here’s what I’m going to do. I am going to attempt to have this blog focus on writing—my personal writing process, what I am writing, and eventually The Road Clandestine project. I am going to intersperse it with my thoughts on my beliefs and music reviews. I am going to try and bring it all around. I am going to try to have it all tie together, and then maybe you will understand my process (assuming you are interested in it). More important, I am going to understand my own process a lot better than I do right now. As of now, it is a nebulous thing that I have some dim ideas on—I’m staring up at the stars and blind to their true meaning. I know they’re important, so I’m searching vigorously.